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My Etsy Store is Now Open! 

I am doing several custom orders for signs and knob boards! Visit my store for unique hand painted signs on awesome barnwood and regular wood or beautiful knob jewelry necklace racks!

I just ordered some AWESOME knobs I found and I am making some with some vintage ones Ive found on my recent trips scouring some shops and markets!

Check it out!

http://www.etsy.com/shop/AutumnNicoleDesigns

Smashbox Camera Ready BB Cream Review & Urban Decay Naked Skin

I am always on the hunt for new light foundations & tinted moisturizers that hold up in the Arizona heat and my busy long days.  I bought the New Urban Decay Naked Skin when I went into Ulta and the guy said since he sees me there all the time and knows I love Urban Decay (that is a problem) that I absolutely must try this "sick" new Urban Decay product and my skin will just love me!

He tested out my skin and said I was a 4.0. So the sucker I am I bought it. The price is $38 for 1 oz but it should last you awhile. I love Urban Decay and all of the Naked line. So I was super excited they had this new product as they aren't super known for skin care. It comes in several colors with cool and warm undertones. Each color has a .5 which are the cool skin tones and the .0 are the warm ones. When I got home and actually applied it on my face the next day, the 4.0 was way to Olive toned for my skin. So I went back and traded it for the 3.5 which is perfect for my skin. I couldn't wait to wash my face and redo my makeup the next morning.I applied it over M.A.C. comfort cream moisturizer with my beauty blender sponge, but I am tempted to buy the Urban Decay blender brush it is recommended with. It dries matte and luminous and I almost didn't need powder over it. I did apply a tiny quick blend of powder on my nose and t zone for the day since I wasn't sure how it would last during the long day. It applied perfect. By the very late afternoon, I did need to touch up with powder but we are talking 115 degree weather and I didn't have primer on underneath, which I usually do. It has more of a watery, liquid consistency than a foundation has so a little goes a long way. I used one full pump for my face. I found it very similar to Hour Glass Veil foundation which one of my best friends referred me to a few months ago. The coverage is great but I can still see my freckles which my husband loves. It is build able which is great but I didn't feel I needed to do that. The packaging is sleek and sturdy. I am a sucker for packaging! It doesn't have that real makeupy smell since its fragrance free which is nice. I don't like to smell like a makeup. 

Cons

My only major hesitation with it is that it doesn't have any SPF, which I do still wear underneath but I like it in my makeup as well. I am a die hard Laura Mercier tinted moisturizer fan with SPF so its hard to compare anything to that, but to me this is a step in between a sheer lightweight Mercier type with illuminating features and a heavy foundation like M.A.C. Studio Fix. 

The next product I got was the New SmashBox Camera Ready BB Cream! BB cream has been all the rage in the US lately when it was brought over from Asia and Korea. Women over there swear by it. BB cream was designed to reduce redness and was created for patients who had dermatological issues or just received chemical peels, etc.  It has several features and is supposed to be a primer, anti aging , moisturizer, foundation and spf all in one.  It is known as Blemish Balm or Beauty Balm. So many big cosmetic companies are coming out with their versions and spins on it. Its pretty much a tinted moisturizer with extra additions. Years ago I stopped wearing heavy foundations and traded them in for tinted moisturizers or very light things such as above, so this was fun to try. I really wanted to try the Too Faced BB Cream since I love most of their products and Smashbox's new Camera Ready BB cream since they are a the kings of Primers and have other great products I love! I decided to go with Smashbox. I got the light/medium but switched it for the light. It was much better on my skin and after a few minutes almost blended in with my color perfectly. I applied it over moisturizer with my beauty blender. It really evened out the slight redness I always get on my upper cheeks which I loved.  It is great if you have oily skin. It controls that stubborn problem very quickly. It is also $39, like the Naked Skin but is a much smaller package than other BB creams, so that stinks. It gave me full coverage, and lasted all day and I didn't need any powder on top. It was not as dewy as my Mercier or other products I like. I love that it is SPF 35 so I don't need to layer on a bunch of sunscreen. 

Cons

Only comes in 4 colors. Says its fragrance free but does have a very makeup type smell to me. It does go away after you put it on and your all set to go.

I love both of these products but they are so different and have different features I cant say which I love more. I am not comparing one BB cream to another here. So the past week, Ive switched up what I use between these two and my Mercier depending on which look I want for the day. I will say my face looked better in a picture with the Smashbox BB cream than it did with the Urban Decay, where it looked great in person but a little too white/powdery in pictures. So I guess if I know the paparazzi are around Ill wear the BB cream! =) 

He is home!!! Our off season life begins...

Brew is finally home!! I could not be happier and more elated to wake up to his amazing smile every single day and to be able to say goodnight in person every single night and not over Skype! The girls are in dreamland that he is home. They love him so much and all the things he does with them. He got home last Saturday and we had the whole night to ourselves! We had an amazing date night, which we haven't had in MONTHS! We went to dinner, a movie and went to the casino and played some black jack (I am obsessed with Black Jack but sometimes see "Chips" as "Tokens" and that doesn't make Brew happy)only to find out my last $20 I had to play with & we were walking out with was better used at the Wheel of Fortune machine where we got a $1,000 spin! Yes a grand! Woop woop! That was super exciting considering I always think the Wheel of Fortune machine is a waste. Then Monday comes and back to reality, but it was so nice to come home every night after work to him instead of waiting a few hours for his game to be over.

So lets kill the white elephant in the room. I let Brew have his few days of a drive home to process what happened to his arm, he drove silently home for 3 days and stopped in Texas on his way to spend 2 nights with his parents. It was a rough few days for us not being together and really not knowing what to say. Once he got home, after our amazing weekend we discussed everything that happened and what the plan was. I am a super planner and super A type personality and I need it all laid out, however lately I've learned not everything needs to be solved in a day which is now what I'm trying to teach Brew so he stops worrying. At this point in his career, his heart is still very much in it, but every year that goes by it gets more difficult for him to see the future playing. The fact of the matter is, before he got hurt, he did great this year, his numbers were great. I don't doubt he wont play again next year if we decide the opportunity is right for him. Many don't know, but our backup plan, which I've tried to not let him think about since I don't want to stress him out or make him feel that he needs one or divert his focus off baseball, has always been in the works. Brew has been thinking about joining the Fire Department the past few years. In fact, two off seasons ago he started the process and actually was going thru the interview process with the City of Phoenix, but a few weeks before the scheduled date, the phone rang late in the off season, and we had a choice to make. With all of our excitement with the future, we went through a lot of back and forth feelings and I told him to go. He didn't want to pass up the chance with the Fire Dept, but I told him the Fire Department will always be here and it would kill me if he stayed and regretted it and asked himself down the road,"what if". So off he went and two more seasons have gone by. During this season, we looked at classes to get started on but they started in August (this week) and he wouldn't have been home in time. So we brushed it off. So once he got home this week, and I was looking for all the reasons why this was meant to be, I told him now he is home and can start the EMT certification he needs and the other classes he needs to take. At least this way, even if we go play again in the Spring, he would already have the whole Fall semester complete and his EMT Certification and State Board all complete and in his back pocket should anything in the future not work out the way we planned. Than he can play and at that point we just wait until the Fire Department hires again, which is rare but will happen between now and late 2013.

Finally he was excited again and realized this really all did happen for a reason and was in gods plans this way. We got him all registered for what he needed, books and all. Thankfully the Seattle Mariners pay for his College since he was drafted by them out of early College so his degree is free! Things were going in the right direction and we decided to take baseball one day at a time. Well once it was released to the public this past week that he was no longer with the Red Sox, the phone rang. A team was offering him to come and was shocked he wasn't with the Red Sox anymore. They didn't know he was hurt so Brew had to explain he couldn't play yet and needed to work on his arm and would be ready by winter or spring at the latest. They said they would check back. It was nice to hear from a team and know that his hard work this season didn't go unnoticed. The same day, when we were at my moms at 8:30 at night, the phone rang again! Ahhh! I heard him repeat the same thing to the guy and they said they will check back in a few months. Just when we didn't think about baseball for a few days, it was very difficult to have to tell teams no and have those conversations. My heart was very sad for him, but happy at the same time. I told him it was bittersweet but reminded him as hard as it was, he did the right thing by telling them no and making sure he works on his arm and its really ready. No matter the circumstance, it breaks your heart when you see someone work so hard for their dream and then when you have opportunities you have to pass up...it just kills me. 

He had a long call with the Red Sox head trainer after this and was told he needs to rest his arm for a few months, start throwing again in December and go from there. I think this made him feel a lot better about things and not worry about baseball right now so he can focus on just being home right now and getting this semester done and working towards other plans on the side. So now, a week later, Brew has started school! He has morning and night classes with professors who are Phx Fire Chiefs/Captains. I actually connected him with one of them thru a Police officer who comes to our office a lot. They invited him to go on calls with them and hang out at the fire house to experience it all. Its great for him to have contacts like that! Right direction! Poor guy was up til midnight last night studying, reading and doing homework! So proud of  him and his focus. He sure is a sexy man when he acts so smart! Baseball, Firefighting, or whatever he ends up doing I know he will be great! I think I can deal with going from a baseball uniform to a fireman uniform...ANY Day! =)

I have to laugh at my own thoughts.

So today, as difficult as it still is, you know what, my husband is on his way home, and thank god for that! I miss him terribly, and its been two months since Ive seen him. Goodness. I had to blog tonight because as I'm sitting here I just had to literally laugh at the real thoughts racing thru my head.

Once things calmed down today I am looking around the house and I start thinking... crap...hes going to be home Saturday and there is NO more room in the closet for him anymore, I have accumulated and moved too many things around. Great, need to clean that out. 

Oh great, no more secret shopping since he isn't around. Hmmm...need a plan B for that.
Ahhhh I need to start shaving my legs again, every SINGLE day!!!

Darnit, I have two days to pull together all my Pinterest Recipes and re-scour that puppy for hours to put together a bunch of dinners for his arrival home. (I don't cook full on meals AS much when he is gone, but when he's home I cook 6 nights a week.) Well 5, Wednesdays is "Fend for yourself Wednesdays", (seriously) and Friday or Saturday we go out. So now I'm all stressed figuring out a grocery store plan for Saturday morning before he gets home. 

Yay! I can sleep in Sunday morning and not wake up to the annoying barking of our two dogs begging to go for a walk. Score, oh and he can give them a bath. Brew on dog duty! I win!

Finally he can start some projects I have waiting for him. Starting with refinishing the nightstands!

So excited we can now go do our "trash the dress" photo shoot in Sedona I have been waiting to do!

Lets see what else he can do, Take the girls to school, help clean the kitchen after dinner, Wash the pans..I hate those suckers Id rather throw them away (Don't judge me, did you read above I cook?) Oh and did I mention already deal with the dogs 100%?!!

Oh boy! Welcome home Brew! Sure your so excited to get here quick!! =)

Goodbye Red Sox

A lot of people are texting me, emailing me, etc asking lots of questions. This post will be easier to explain it all. My tears are all dried up for today. After being on the DL since July 1st, my husband has been working so hard on getting his elbow better. Monday he threw for the first time, 45 feet and felt good, and yesterday he threw again at 60 ft. The trainers and coaches said they were impressed he is doing so well and feels good only on the second day. So needless to say, from my post a few days ago, we were very excited. However, he still needed to continue throwing and working up to 120 feet to work his way back to live pitching on the mound. We felt like we were on the right track again. Today, Brew was released from the Boston Red Sox. They told him they picked up so many guys in the draft there wasn't any roster room for him now that he is getting better and since he had such a great first half of the season, the best thing they could do for him now is release him and he has a good chance of getting picked back up by another team.

Well we know with 3 weeks left of the season that chance is very very slim, especially because he still needs to work on his arm and throw a few more weeks. So now he is on his 3 day drive home and will be home by Saturday, which of course I can't wait to see him since I haven't in so long. I miss him so much, but this isn't how I wanted to him to come home so badly. Heartbroken, defeated, and let down. In 8+ years of Professional baseball he has never been released. Its definitely normal to release guys who have season ending injuries, we, just like with our bank account fraud, never thought it would happen to us. Ive learned how dirty baseball is over the years. It is definitely a political business. There is little to do sometimes with talent it seems. Not that the players aren't talented, of course they are. Immensely! The odds of a player getting drafted out of high school or college. are crazy but lesson each year you play another year in the minors and of course until you get to the majors, so there is obviously major talent there, but I've definitely learned the dirty side of baseball, the side few people tell you which is fine but wow...its mostly politics. So after hours of tears, and trying to support my husband and bring his spirits up, and over 30 baseball wives messaging me, tweeting me and emailing me, I feel immense support and we are now just trying to breathe and take it all in. 

His chances of getting picked up in the off season, with his numbers from last year and this year are great, and of course I hope for his sake, the phone rings for him before Spring. He could even play fall or winter ball. He has worked his whole life for this since he was little, gave up school, gave up everything to play when he was drafted and it is all he has ever done or known. His heart is still in this game, and I know his future will still involve baseball if he's on the mound, in a coaches box, or scouting or whatever it is. His dreams are too close. So for now, he comes home, he works on his arm, throws every day, works out and stays in baseball shape so he is ready in case he gets a call, and meanwhile, we work on plan B, in which i'll be by his side every step of the way with whatever he decides. So now Ill pack away all my Red Sox gear in the back of my closet along with the Brewers and Mariners gear that's in there and never worn anymore, until we have a new favorite team to support. Of course I have a few I'd LOVE for him to play for! 

Naturally, I was panicked about what the future holds, since we have so much else going on right now. Thankfully, we have always had a plan B, with kids and getting older, we need to. So, If this is where playing ends, I know it will take a long time to get used to, and a lot of tears in between while he figures out where else he fits in the world, but I am proud of how far he has come and how long he made it. I know God has a plan for him. I know it will be bigger and better than this. My husband is a very faithful and patient man who has a good relationship with God so I know those two have something planned and Brew just doesn't know its in the works yet. I can only pray that he finds that out soon. I believe in blessings in disguise.

First day of School!

Today was the first day of school! Crazy how fast the summer flew by! Now I have a 1st grader and a 2nd grader! I cannot believe that! They are such big girls! Cheers to the first day of school!!!!! 

The art of staying positive

YAY! So latest update on my husband, defiantly doesn't look like we will be joining the Tommy John family. Rehab in Florida has been going so well. Last week he started on shoulder stuff since its been weak without throwing due to the elbow, and yesterday he called me and got to throw. He threw 45 & 60 feet and felt great. Today they had him throw again 60 ft and said they were shocked how well he was doing for only the 2nd day, when he hasn't thrown in over a month. He doesn't look like he is holding back or anything.

He may throw again tomorrow and the goal is to work up to 120 feet again in the next few weeks and build his strength back up.

So far so good! He usually gets sore after a few days of throwing not the next day, so we will see how he feels the next few days. Tonight he "bibled" to me he felt great! This is such a blessing for all he has been through! So exciting!!!! His spirits are up and to me, that's all that matters. Positive thoughts prevail. xoxo

Happy Birthday to my Baby Girl!

My littlest Princess turned 6!!! Born August 2, 2006. She came in at 5 lbs 10 oz and 18.5 inches long! She was so beautiful! So excited for Madison to have a little sister! Gosh have those 6 years flown by! Everyone always tells you that kids grow up so fast, and you really never grasp the severity of how true that is until your own children grow up year after year. Sad! She used to be my cuddle bug, my sweet little quiet one. She still will snuggle on a rare occasion, but goodness her and my oldest are really switching roles on me lately. Now Averie is the sassy, and very dramatic child!

So Averie is all bummed out year after year of having a summer birthday. Madison always gets the spring birthday during school so always has big parties of some sort. We try with Averie, but at this age "close" friends to keep in  contact for her at this age are hard, and everyone is always on vacation. Last year we spent her birthday visiting Brew in Ohio, which was fun.

This year with school starting the same week, we had our own celebration at home, in which she was very spoiled and this weekend are going camping, (as in a majorly decked out camper with plasmas and good food) haha, in Payson. My grandma and mom are making her a cake and she is super excited!

She is growing up so fast! Last night her and Madison were talking about boyfriends, who broke up with who, etc. I about died! What happened to my little girls? It is very hard, no matter how you as a mom try to keep your kids little its a daily challenge to avoid what they hear, see and get from the outside world at school, from friends, etc. I always call  them my babies, which they hate and always tell me they are kids, I also hate the word kid, "My kid", sounds Ghetto to me!

6 going on 16.....My sweet babies! God help me!

When it rains it pours

After our crappy past few weeks with Brew's arm, I was prepared to start the week fresh. Let me tell you how this went.

Monday at the office, check account to see if Ford starting taking Brew's truck payment out automatically yet before I sent a check. You see Fifth Third Bank is retarded and who our truck is financed through, and doesn't let you pay online unless you bank with then, and has had major issues getting their crap together since February getting our payments on auto pay. So I log on...GASP!!!!!!!!! A check for just over $2,000 pending! Say What?!!  I called Brew who of course I could not get a hold of for ever since he was already at the field. Note to self..in case of emergency, my husband is unavailable from 2:30 - 11:00 pm...pretty much. I am in panic mode. I called the bank, durrr its Monday, "cant help you Ma'am, the check is still pending". You see, we don't write checks, maybe one a month, two max if I'm out of cash for the sitter. Brew and I have an unwritten rule (Thank god its unwritten) that over a certain amount of money we need to tell each other before we purchase it. Clearly I didn't spend that much in one sitting and I know he didn't. I control all finances, not that he isn't capable, but he is on the road, traveling, living in and out of hotels, we have two living expenses, two cable bills, two of everything so its easier for me, at home, the A type, to do it all, pay the bills and keep track. Its what I'm good at. Paying for things!! =) Now I'm in tears. I cant wait until tomorrow am! Finally when I did get a a hold of him, he was livid. At this point I realize I probably shouldn't have told him, what can he do, until I knew what the deal was. So the next morning when the money posted I called the bank. Oh My Lord! A fake check not even looking like our checks, all typed in in all areas...but my signature! Clearly I didn't sign it, but it was my signature. Detective Flores calls me and looked at over 20 checks I last wrote, and since I'm crazy I pretty much never sign my name the same twice. Ever. Every single check was different, every one, except the one check I wrote to his truck payment the month before. It was identical! PERFECT! The check number was also 10 checks exactly ahead...hmmm..scam. I didn't even have anymore. I ran out at that check and ordered more just last week. Freaking out we go to the bank, call the bank, freeze our accounts and wait. Waiting all week was agony. We kept being told by the 800 numbers they cant guarantee anything, but the inside banks were telling us its clearly fake. No duh. Get this, it was put in an ATM and all! Hello..cameras? Someones account?! I just felt terrible. Meanwhile, his personal online account was also hacked, which we got a call about. So we had to close that one too. Insane! Good news is now, after a week the bank has placed the money in our account and we have been informed that a letter with the persons info, etc has been mailed to us. So Ill be racing to the mail later...to be continued. 

Meanwhile, Friday, I get a call at the office, if you read my last post, you know Brew's elbow isn't doing well and the treatments aren't helping. I answer and he says, "Babe can you wait til Sunday to see Ice Age 3?" Huh?! He explains they just sent him to Florida...and he was so upset he just wanted to come home, understandably. He had to be there by Sunday. I cried so much for him I couldn't even function at work anymore, and I am not one who ever brings personal stuff to work. Unless its funny stuff! This was a blow we were not fully expecting. For those of you who don't understand this could mean a lot of things for us. The team has to make sure he is pitch healthy and has to continue treatment and care until he is. So this means a few things could happen.

• He could do treatments and get better before September when the season ends and come home healthy and hopefully get picked back up in the off season,
• He could do treatments, not get better by September and they keep him there as long as necessary which could mean weeks or months into the off season and after the season is officially over, only getting workers comp pay instead of his salary and living in team hotel.
• He keeps doing treatments, doesn't work, so they take next step do MRI, he needs surgery, Tommy John or something similar and they release him shortly after (which is common for teams after an end of season injury) and he comes home and spends a full year rehabbing and being paid from workers comp but he's home. Then hopefully when hes healthy can play again in a year from now.
• He keeps doing treatments, it doesn't work, MRI, Surgery and they don't release him meaning he would rehab in Florida for an entire year, living in a hotel.

All of the above are all very, very possible. Are you seeing where my tears are coming from yet?! As it stands today, sadly, he will most likely not pitch again this season and he has been shut down. This was my biggest fear for him and is so heartbreaking. He worked so hard last year in Indy Ball with the Lake Erie Crushers to get back into the league, and has had a great year so far this year, and now for this to happen. Any of the scenarios could greatly affect our family and of course my husbands future. Last night he made it safely to Florida, they let him drive since he had his truck instead of fly. He got to his room after a super long day of driving to a major messy roommate. He stayed in his own room for the night and was moved to another room today. Lets face it, nobody likes the thought of living out of a suitcase in a hotel for several weeks to months. He has to eat out every meal, unless he is at the field, they have meals, and doesn't get any good home cooking until he comes home. His schedule for the next several weeks is pretty boring.

6 am : Wake Up go to Field

6:30 -12 pm - Treatments and rehab at the field

12:00 Done at field

Rest of day to Bed time... Eat, walk around Bass Pro, Eat again, Fish, Eat again, Bed. (There is a lake behind their hotel)


Next day: Repeat, Repeat, Repeat.  He has to do this every day but Sundays. I wish so badly I could be with him there. 


The only good thing now is that although we are still 3 hours apart in time distance, we are on a similar early morning schedule and can actually talk before late at night instead of me waiting for the games to be over. Right now we are trying to stay positive and not think too much about the future, although for my husband, who is such a good man, and wants to be a good husband and father and take care of us, that is an incredibly hard task for him. I understand that, but Rome wasn't built in a day!!! (My mom just got back from Rome Tonight, so I find that fitting at the moment)!!


For now I am just praying the team has his best interest and hoping every day he gets a little better!


xoxo - Autumn

The heartbreak of an injury

A few weeks ago Brew's elbow starting really hurting. He went out and threw and was so painful he couldn't take it anymore so told the trainer. They evaluated it for a few days then finally put him on the DL. He was on the DL for a week while getting treatments daily until he went to the doctor. The team doctor didn't think anything was torn but gave him several anti-inflammatory pills and suggested to continue the treatments of hot/cold, and numerous other things. He also told him to stop throwing his curve ball. Umm...how do you tell a pitcher with a great curve ball to stop throwing it?! He also suggested increasing his forearm strength. Meanwhile, he was waiting to hear back from the doctor in Boston.

So another week goes by, which at this point he cant even lift weights. and hurts to even lift his baseball bag. The doctor in Boston got back to the team and said to only do cold treatments for now and no longer hot. At this point, it has been a few weeks and my husband has not been on the mound since June 30 th. It has been an incredibly discouraging and upsetting past few weeks for the both of us. All he wants to do is play. Usually if hes ever had a sore arm which is normal after several innings its better within 2 days or by the next time is pitches, but this time nothing has gotten better and its been over two weeks. I understand the team needs to assess the injuries very slowly and try to rehab them before they go into any further tests, MRI's, etc, it just makes things very frustrating when I see him in this position. All I can think about is it is the last 8 weeks of the season now, and I just keep praying for my husbands sake he gets to be on the mound before its over. 

He has done so well this year so far, it would break my whole heart if this is how it ends for him. Right now a lot of possibilities could be presented. He could get magically better, they could send him to Florida to rehab the rest of the season, they could send him to Florida to rehab the rest of the season and during the off season until its better which just makes me cry thinking about him being gone any longer than September, or they could keep him there on the DL and hopefully god answers our prayers and his elbow heals and he can play again in the next 8 weeks at some point. We just don't know what is wrong and I am hoping the Red Sox do something further other than doing treatment's on it and icing it before its too late. Hearing him on the phone and how upset he is over not being able to play...nothing hurts more than that. Of course I'm dying for him to be home and I'm endlessly counting down  the days until the off season, but I just have to remind myself that my husband gets to live out his dream and work towards his higher dreams every day, he is a role model for so many little boys who want  to be just like him, he gets paid to do his favorite thing in the world. How many people can say that? I feel selfish when I cry to him and I tell him how much I want him home, of course I want him to feel wanted, but I never intend to make him feel like he is wasting time away from his family. Baseball has a deadline, lets face it. Its something all ball players Minors or Majors deal with, unless your one of the very few who make millions and millions. So to sacrifice a few more years to let him live his dream and play his passion, I'd do it over and over again for him any day of the week until it starts directly affecting our marriage or our family. Sometimes lately I don't always have the right words to tell him, and at times nothing I say or anyone else says helps. I get that...all he has ever known in his whole life, is baseball. That's it. So I get he is scared and worried. He is an amazing man with worth ethic and determination that is out of this world. Sometimes I feel like he is wanting me to tell him to quit, to make his decision for him. I won't do that. I did tell him that if he can tell me his heart is truly still in it and he still has passion for it then he needs to stay and if not than whats this all really worth anyway and to come home and take some time to figure out what his heart wants to do in his next chapter in life. Of course, his heart is still in it. So he continues this dream, I just keep reminding him that he has something special or he wouldn't keep getting signed. This past off season when the Red Sox signed him after we already turned them down two years prior to go with the Brewers, I told him it was a sign. Who says no to the Red Sox...Twice?! Clearly, they see something in you and your arm or they wouldn't ask again especially knowing your getting older. Now, are they a tough organization and do they have some guys not moving up for years and years, yes, but to us, it was a chance for him to keep playing. Playing is all that matters to him. 

So for now, I have my bad nights and he has his, and this season has worn on us, and we are both ready for September....but I pray every night that he makes his healthy return to the mound before this seasons over, even if its the last day of the season. He deserves it. This is something that happens to players every day, I get its normal, but it really bothers me when people start asking me why he doesn't just come home. I believe  in my husband and I believe in his talent and I will keep my faith alive for him until he on his own decides to put his glove down and walk away.

Best Week Ever!! June Trip, All Star Break!

ALL STAR BREAK! For 3 Whole days I get my husband all to myself (well and the girls) with no interuptions at 2:00 pm to go to the field and i'm not going to be lonley til 11:00 pm! Woop Woop! (Yes im a Woop Girl)

The girls and I headed out to Salem, Virgina for a whole 7 days! So exciting! They hadn't seen Brew since he left for Spring Training. It is crazy expensive to fly all 3 of us out that far so much, and we know I've already learned my lesson on buddy passes. Yikes! So we packed all up, brought our two dogs to doggy daycare, and set sail. Or Took off. Whatever. The first 4 days we went to every game. Three were night games and one was a day game. Every day we took Brew to the field at 2 and roamed around Salem. The 1st day we got mani, pedis and the girls got cute B's on their toes and fingers. We went cupcake hunting and found some pretty ones at Bubble Cake in Salem, although I got a mean text from a baseball wife who was very unhappy with me that I went there instead of Viva La Cupcakes! (Ha-ha Love you)! I even found an indoor Jump place to kill a few hours in and attempt to drain their energy.

At the games, we made friendship bracelets, played on our electronics, colored, played on the jumpies at the kids center and went broke with the girls wanting their daily nachos, dippin dots, pretzels and other various ball park foods. They about drove everyone crazy running up and down the stairs yelling and screaming! The jump center was a relief for awhile to let them burn it all off. Every game though from about the 5th-9th inning we had our butts in the seats.

Believe it or not, this is the first time I had seen him pitch all season. Other trips were not on his Pitch Days. Lame! They should schedule that crap on days wives are in town. I'll call somebody. Anyway, Brew pitched on the 3rd night. He pitched a few innings and gave up one run. I felt terrible that I ruined his streak but am still proud of how well he has done lately. He wasn't the most thrilled husband right after the game but like I told him, there wouldn't be baseball if there wasn't a run now and then. I love seeing him on the mound. It gives me a rush of something I can't explain.

Here is Brew and the girls after the games and us before the game in the tunnel!

Aside from Baseball, we took the girls fishing, we as in Brew did, I got a magazine and watched. =) The creek was beautiful. The girls caught fish, Went sliding down the creek, and I enjoyed the shade and the greenest area I have ever been in! Averie stuck by my side most of the time. She is a chicken like her mama. Madison is a little tom boy! She likes to get in that water, and get all up in those fish! Uck! Whose child is she?!!! While in Salem again, we went to my favorite, Fork in the Alley. The girls caught fire fly's and we enjoyed the outside music, while they played corn hole and played with the fly's. Averie had one on her hand and kept petting it and it would light up! Too fun!

Every night the girls slept in the living room, on an air mattress. While we were there his two roommates were home and one of their girlfriends, but both left for All Star Break for 3 days, as one was in the All Star Game and one went back to Atlanta. Of course, I was all panicked the first few days with a 3 bedroom apartment full of 7 people and making sure the girls were on their best behavior and not screaming and running. They still did. Every moment. They did however, get lucky since I couldn't scream like I normally do or his roommates would think I was a Physco! So they got a nice mom for the week. Luckily, all 7 of us were hardly ever there at the same time aside from when everyone was sleeping. So it all worked out. The girls got a kick out of sleeping on an air mattress. 

Finally, All Star Break, we headed out on a 5 hour road trip to Myrtle Beach, SC! So excited!!! We stayed a hotel near the beach and near the Boardwalk which is an amazing outdoor, mall, food, entertainment venue around a body of water! Fabulous! We spent the entire day at the beach! So much fun! My daredevil child got a board and went way out, further than Id ever go, caught live conch shells, found a crab and more yucky  creatures, while Averie and I layed out, played in the sand and found sea shells! My kind of girl! Overall, we had an amazing time, getting fat, eating fast food (Don't even get me started on Bojangles and their sweet potato pie and chicken and biscuits!) and out every single day, every single meal (I'm now on operation starve myself), spending so much time with Brew, going to the games, and being in his presence. He is an amazing man and we are so lucky to have him! Leaving was the hardest thing to do. I know I won't see him until the season is over and that breaks my heart every day. It makes me so happy that the girls get to experience so many new cool places we would never normally visit. Now we are on a countdown that hurts to see so high, but with Skype, Facetime and the phone, it sometimes, makes it a little easier. 74 More Sleeps. 

Doing his thing and doing it well!

Player of the week! Brew was player of the week the week of May 25- June 3rd in the whole minor league club with the Sox. One of his two roomates was also player of the week! Go Roomies!

Players of the Week, May 28-June 3: Travis Shaw & Ruben Flores

Last week's SoxProspects.com Player and Pitcher of the Week honors were taken by a pair of Salem Red Sox: Travis Shaw and Ruben Flores.

Shaw wasn't the nominee with the highest batting average (.370) or the highest on-base percentage (.500) but what he brought to the plate was power (slugging .889) with six of his ten hits (in 27 at-bats)going for extra bases, four home runs and two doubles. He also scored eight runs and batted in 12, took six bases-on-balls and swiped a base. Shaw is second, to teammate Jackie Bradley, in the Carolina League in batting average at .337 and has an on-base percentage of .427 and is slugging .574 to round out his season triple slash line, with seven home runs, 18 doubles and three triples in 190 at-bats over 52 games. He is the twenty-eighth ranked prospect in the organization by SoxProspects.com.

Flores made two appearances last week, working three no-hit shutout innings in each and fell just short of perfection by allowing a single base-on-balls. It was nine-up-nine-down for Flores at Lynchburg (ATL) May 30 where he struck out five and earned the win and three days later back home against Myrtle Beach (TEX) June 2 when he was less flashy but almost equally effective, walking one and striking out one. On the season Flores owns a 1-0 record with two saves and a 2.01 ERA in 13 appearances over 22.1 innings pitched, striking out 24 while walking only two and holding opposing batters to a .156 average. Flores, 28, was signed out of the independent Frontier League in September 2011 and is a former 12th round pick of Seattle in 2003.      

He has had an amazing streak of perfect scoreless innings! He had about 12 perfect innings and was throwing great! Still is!! Woop Woop! So proud of my man!

A week of Peace...should prepare for a Chaos

With my husband gone from March to September, one would think I would be very lonely. Yet with two kids and two dogs, its not a feeling I experience in a real "lonely" definition too often. Some would say that's a blessing....I beg to differ! =)

This summer for the first time, I let the girls go away for vacation without mommy. Brew parents, my in laws, have been begging for me to send them to Texas so they can visit with them for a week. I finally caved thinking the girls are now old enough now and it would be nice to have a week of peace. So after the girls left for Texas for a full week, my house was peaceful! The first 4 nights were like heaven, quiet, nightly wine, catching up on my DVR, and no stressing out in the morning getting them up and ready while I am trying to leave for the office. However, after the 4th night my loneliness really set in and I really missed them being here. I missed the noise and their voices. I went to dinner and drinks with one of my best friends and tried to just pass the time at night since my days were so busy with work, thank goodness. 

Finally, Saturday I got the girls back. They had an amazing time in Texas. They were active from dusk til dawn. They went fishing, went to the Dairy Farm, went to two baseball games, saw the cousin baby MJ, went to an amusement park, went swimming oh and get this, they took naps. NAPS! Daily at that. They seriously have not taken naps since they were babies. I don't know what my mother in law was feeding these kids, but I about died when I heard that. Madison told me she wouldn't take them at home, because there is never any peace and quiet. Too funny, shes right about that one. They went on and on about the things they did and how much fun they had. I was happy I sent them since we only visit Texas a few times each year in the fall/winter.The day I got them we snuggled, gave huge hugs all day, rented a movie, played, talked & I remembered why I missed them so much those last few days.

Well, let me tell you, its like when  you take a vacation from work, sometimes, it isn't worth it, because you know what a disaster your going to come back to so you skip the vacation, or just regret it once your back. Later that night, no more than 20 minutes was I not giving them my undivided attention, while quietly playing in there room., (that should have been my first sign of a disaster), Averie and Madison decided to Picasso their expensive beds and dresser. Oh my Goodness, I about died!!!!!!!!!Nail paint ALL over the white wood, Averies name written in Nail paint, finger marks of paint ALL over the bed and the carpet! I was so upset. 20 minutes...Once I was over being upset, I made them sit there and scrub it for an hour. It did not come off. I used nail polish remover, big mistake. Made the wood worse. So I stopped and was fighting back the tears. Ugh! Finally I just gave up, took all the makeup, nail polish and paint out of their room and took them for a walk to get a movie. I called Brew and he said to leave it til he comes home in September. If you know me, I cannot handle things unkept and looking like that, so this makes me crazy!! How can two little girls make such a disaster? Very very easy!

Well folks, back to my world of Chaos and reality! I realized I didn't drink enough wine when they were gone, because someone knew I would need some leftover for when they came home! Moral of the story: My Kids will Fool you! Fool you! (but I do love them very much)

Brew is Striking Em' Out

So since Brew has been off the DL with the Salem Red Sox he has had 3 outings. The first inning in another post as you saw, he gave up one run. First time in 3 weeks he pitched, moving on...

The next two times he pitched the last 3 innings of each game! He typically does not pitch 3 straight innings as a closer/reliever. So that was exciting. The first one was against the Lynchburg Hillcats. He pitched 3 solid innings with only 1 walk and 5 strikeouts!

Some Tweets and articles read:

"Ruben Flores has struck out four in two perfect innings out of the Salem Sox bullpen... Salem leads 6-3"

"Ruben Flores became Mr. Perfect in the final three innings tonight, retiring all nine batters he faced with five strikeouts. Salem wins 6-3!"

"Flores arrived in the last of the fifth and slammed the door shut, dealing three perfect innings out of the pen to earn his first Carolina League win. Flores struck out five and now has 23 strikeouts and just one walk on the season."

The last game he pitched was against the Myrtle Beach Pelicans. He pitched another 3 solid and scoreless innings! He current  has a 2.00 ERA and is doing great! So happy to see him doing well! Hopefully he pitches a lot when the girls and I visit for All Star Break so I can see him kick some ***! So proud of my husband! He wont always be perfect, he wont always throw strikeouts and have perfect innings, but his determination and heart on the mound is always there. To me, that's all that matters and I am always proud. 

One year ago today & Why I appreciate the diamond

It was Memorial day weekend and I was excited to go visit Brew for the weekend. The day started out super early as I got on my flight to Chicago and ended up to my final destination of Cleveland. I was so excited to spend time with him and go to a few of his games. He picked me up from the airport, took me to his apartment there, showed me around and had to head to the field.

I spent the next few hours resting and driving around beautiful neighborhoods. Around game time I left for the field to watch him play. It started to sprinkle on and off but it wasnt too bad yet. He pitched two scoreless innings strike out after strike out. I was so proud of him. Everyone was saying how great he was. They won the game and we headed off to dinner. He was in a great mood! All throughout dinner he kept smiling and was being very silly. I assumed he was just thrilled to see me. =)

At this point it was very late around 11pm and it was pouring rain. His phone rang, he said it was his manager. After a 2 second phone call all he said was "ok", and hung up. He said John told him to come to the field. I was like, "What, it's 11pm in the pouring rain, why didn't he talk to you after the game?" He said he didnt know and his mood went from thrilled to quiet and concerned.

The apartment was way out of the way so he told me I had to come. I told him I would stay in the car, because that would just be wierd. The ride there I was trying to be calm for him, as he was not saying much and seemed worried. I just kept telling him how great he just did at the game and how great his whole season was so far and I was sure it was nothing bad. He was concered some guys were released previously in the weeks before and you just never know with baseball. He continued to say he had no idea, while I was still saying how crazy it was to go all the way back so late. I was trying to stay positive, but the more concerned and quiet he became I got more worried. I started to text my mom and tell her what was going on and how wierd it was. She said she was sure there was nothing to worry about and he has been doing well.

When we got to the field, he went inside and I sat in the car continuing to text my mom. After 15 minutes or so, a guy came to the car and knocked on the window. When I opened it he said Ruben wanted to see me. I asked what was going on and he said he saw him talking to John, the manager in his office and walked out of the clubhouse very upset and told him to go get me. I thought it was wierd and I instantly got very worried in my stomache. He gave me an umbrella and walked me into the players clubhouse. We walked thru it and onto the stadium main deck. Once we started to walk to the dugout, I got very confused. We get down near it and Ruben is sitting in the dugout. He leaves us alone and I looked at Ruben and he looked so upset.

I asked him what was going on. He stood up and with emotion in his voice, said that he got released. He went on to say how there were veteran issues, they are bringing another guy in and explained what they said. I was so confused. I told him it was crazy and there is no possible way after the season thus far he had, how just a few hours ago he did amazing and everyone told him so. I just went on and on. I could not believe it. However, by the 4th or so time he said he was serious, I just stopped and started to cry for him. I did not know what to do or so. I just stood there. He started to walk up the few steps onto the field as I am still standing there and said he wanted me to walk with him. I was like, "Walk with you? What do you mean walk with you? Why do you want to walk? Hunny lets go inside and go home and talk about it." I was thinking he was crazy. He said he wanted to walk around the field and think before we left especially if it was his last time there. In silence I just followed him as my mind is racing. Still at this point I was thinking I was in a twilight zone with no idea what was to come.

However, once we start to get near the pitchers mound he turns around and his face is no longer heartbreaking. He gets on his knee, pulls out a black box out of the glove that I never even noticed he had in his hand. The field lights are on, and he says "Autumn I love you and the girls so much, I want to spend the rest of my life with you, Will you Marry me?" I dropped the umbrella and started to cry again! I was shocked! He kept talking and I was so surprised I wasnt even hearing him, I just stared at the ring and kept looking at him. I turned around and there were guys and people and field staff all up on the deck. A song, Unchained Melody, started to play on the speakers.

He got up and as im crying I asked him if my mom knew, he said yes, then I remembered all of what just happened and I asked, "do you still have a job?", he laughed then at the same time I just said "put it on, put it on!"

After that we walked back up the the deck and everyone said congrats and asked me if I really thought he got released. I just laughed and and kept looking at him like what the heck! Im gonna get you!

I was so excited, I instantly called my mom who had known for awhile and couldnt wait until everyone else woke up the next morning!

He did a great job! I will never forget that night. This is why I love the baseball Diamond even more! <3

Since my husband is off the DL finally, he has been back up to pitch twice. The first time was a few days ago and he gave up one run, but who cares, he hadn't pitched in almost 3 weeks and needed to get back in the swing of things.

Last night he pitched 1 and 2/3 innings and did great. No runs for him. He threw hard at 95 MPH which he hasn't done since last year. It felt good to hear how he did, but even better to know he was back on the mound! Now my nights will be re-consumed with listening to the games for his #PitchDays (Yes I twitter hash tag that). Not that I don't care about the WHOLE team, but lets face it as busy as I am here at home, listening to other husbands and BF's, isn't why I listen. 

Cant wait to continue to hear how he does and see him pitch in a few weeks on our next visit! The Salem Red Sox are currently in 1st place over the Dash. Woop Woop! This could change any moment but sounds good to me today!

His ERA is back in the 2's and he feels great! Keep it up my sweet Brew!

Re-acivated! The day I leave..go figure!

After the weekend spent watching other wives, gfs, and fiances husbands pitch, (that was very exciting), while I'm on the plane back on air Wi-fi, my husband messages me and tells me he is off the deadly DL and is now re-activated! What a great way to end the weekend! Ha-ha! The baseball gods must have some crazy plans in mind! Now let the games resume! Cant wait to see him back on the mound after the past over two weeks off! The even better news is today the Salem Red Sox took first place in their league over the Dash! Woop Woop!

Surprise! The Journey I took for love and all its Chaos!

My husband was told 3 weeks ago he was being placed on the 7 DL for another player from Low A to be moved up. He was not injured in any way, so this was a hard thing for me to comprehend. To make matters worse, they told him many things that just confused me even more but were supposed to encourage him I guess. It was a very rough time for us. I was very sad for him but continued to tell him to stay positive and try to be as encouraging and supportive as I could. Never the less it was discouraging as weeks went by and the "7" day DL turned into way beyond that. During this time I planned a Surprise trip to see him for his 28th birthday on May 19th. My plan was to arrive Friday and knock on his door at midnight when I got in! I booked a buddy pass ticket through a friend and then I find out what Standby means....

The day I was leaving my mom and I told him I was going up North with her for the night in case I didn't have service to get away for the weekend in cooler air, so he wouldn't get suspicious. That Friday afternoon I left work and headed to the airport, happy as a bee to see my sweet husband. Dogs at dog daycare and kids all set til my return Monday. Quick trip but well worth seeing my husband who I hadn't seen since Spring Training in March.

I get to the airport and realized my bag I was going to carry on was too big and had too many liquids. So I was forced to check it in. When they looked at my check in they couldn't find me. I gave them my flights and they said they had an Autumn Vaughn-Flores on it not an Autumn Vaughn. Hmmm...you idiot, do you think that's a quinkydink??!!! ME Its ME! I explained Ive been too busy since I got married and my ID is still Vaughn only and I havent had time to change it, and I guess my friend booked it under both names. She threw this huge deal and said they cant check me in, name doesn't match, was terrible. My flight was leaving in 30 minutes. Finally after two supervisors they changed it and checked me in. Someone was clearly having a bad day. That would never normally happen! So I race up to the gate hop on and get to my connecting flight/layover in Charlotte, NC. At this point its very late at night and as soon as I get there they said my flight to Roanoke, VA was cancelled.  The whole flight. I instantly cried. He said no other flights were leaving the rest of the night until tomorrow morning. Meanwhile, Brews game was over and I was starting to get a lot of texts and calls from him wandering if I was okay, etc and where I was. This just added to my stress. The man starts telling me I could rent a car and drive the four hours to Roanoke. I cry even more. Ya let me get car to drive when We have a car there, Ive worked all day, flown all day and its midnight. Good call buddy. I asked him where else I could go. He said a flight to Lynchburg, VA leaves in a little bit and is just over an hour away from Roanoke. Meanwhile, my mom is searching flights, seeing what she could help with, we are looking at other airlines, nothing. Finally she tells me I need to call Brew. There is nobody who can help me across the country at this point but my husband. So as I'm sitting in a chair, waiting, bawling so heavily im hyperventilating...I call him. I said "I have to tell you something..Surprise!" and told him the whole story. He was shocked & surprised and said he was coming to get me. I was more devastated I felt like my surprised was ruined and not as planned than I was the situation I was in. 

My sweet husband, after his game drives to Lynchburg and picks me up. They told me my luggage would be at my original destination in Roanoke the next morning since it was already after midnight. So we go to his apartment and wake up the next am and go to the Roanoke Airport. Low and Behold, "Ma'am, your luggage is in Lynchburg, youll have to drive there and get it or we will fly it here." OMG! Seriously! So we get in the car, drive to Lycnhburg, get my bag that was literally sitting in that tiny airport when we walked in at the counter, and drive back to Roanoke. Luggage at last! We spend the next few hours together and then I drive him to the field so I can go back and get ready for the game.

Let me give you a verbal peek at his place. Three bedroom, two baths, rented Court Furniture for living room, dining room and all 3 bedrooms. Nothing at all on the walls, our tv he brought in the living room and Brew has the Master suite with bathroom in room. NO bath mat, no hand soap, no extra toilet paper, no air freshener, no breakfast stuff. AGH So after a Walmart trip, since that's all that seems to be in these places, and my husband who forgets who he is married to LOVES Walmart, I buy a warm and fuzzy bath mat, towels, hand soap, air freshener, toilet paper, breakfast stuff and cheese its for me! MEN! Make his bed, clean his room and get my self ready for the game! One of his roommates Fiances was in town and staying at the apartment who I met when I came back and was super nice, so we sat next to each other for that game and vented about our crazy boys! The game was packed, which was fun for me to see. I sat on the opposite side of the field and Brew was in the bullpen on the other side. Girls who sit at the Bullpen are cleat chasers so I've been told. Haha.

The next day was a day game. We woke up went to this beautiful park, saw some people fishing and just took a nice walk. Took him to his game and decided to get myself a mani and explore Roanoke, Salem! After my amazingly cheap and great $15 Gel mani deal (at home they are $35 for gel mani) I explored a little to find him a birthday cake or cupcake! I actually got on the freeway and gps'd my way around this new city in his big red F150. For the first time I didn't feel odd driving it. Too funny. I found a great place called Fresh Market, which is like our version of AJ's fine foods with a Whole foods twist. Got him some yummy stuff and then ventured off to Viva La Cupcakes which my friend and baseball wife Kristin Wilson referred me to. Fabulous! Got a few for Brew but I made him share! I ended up at game a few innings in. Went fast thank goodness cuz we had a whole night to ourselves! Love day games! That night, I gave him four choices, again all from Kristin, who used to live there when her husband played for them. He chose 'Fork in the Alley". We about died when we got there. CUTEST place ever! Live band, GREAT wood fired oven food, outdoors, cute old house with bistro lights and even had Corn hole! It reminds me of the setting at Cibo in downtown Phoenix. <3 We had the best time, drank beer, ate, laughed so much and played corn hole on our way out. (My friends are probably laughing at me, because truck, beer and corn hole are NEVER things taht come out of my mouth). My husband does that to me! Love him for it!

Monday was an off day and my departing day. =( We spent the whole morning at the park by the stream fishing. Ha. (That also, NEVER comes out of my mouth). =) We ate lunch and tried to enjoy our last few moments together. Time to leave. We go to the airport and not only do we see another player their leaving on my flight but were told he was just moved up and was leaving now. Just what he needed to hear. Anyway, sadly we say our goodbyes and I get on the plane to Charlotte. When I get to Charlotte, I go to my connecting flight and was told, it was overbooked and there was  alot of standby people on it. I was thinking to myself, your kidding me. Sure enough, I didn't get on. Too overbooked. The next flight left an hour later and had 2 seats left for sale on it, and get this...38 standbys and I, was #38 on the list, in that order!!!!!!!! I cried again, and cried and cried. They said there was no way of getting me back to Phoenix tonight. I thought someone was playing a joke on me at that point. I asked how much to purchase a ticket as a regular passenger. $1,005 Ma'am.  Seriously?! I called Brew, my mom and my friend bawling, meanwhile im texting another baseball wife, bawling....I was losing it! I told the agent to get me to San Diego, LA, El Paso, Vegas, ANYWHERE that would get me closer to the west coast and id figure it out from  there. NOTHING was leaving, everything was booked and all those standbys, were getting bumped as well on other flights. We looked at every airline, everywhere in that place. Nothing! Finally she kindly tells me I can go get a hotel and return in the morning, like everyone else is doing. Ok, what are my chances if everyone else is doing that of leaving tomorrow am. "Well, I cant tell you that."

Sigh. I looked at her and asked if there was any flights to Roanoke tonight. She said, you mean where you just flew in from a few hours ago. Yes, that's what I mean. If I'm going to be alone in North Carolina in a hotel for another 14 hours, I might as well fly right back to Virgina and be with my husband if I Cant leave til tomorrow anyway. So I did it. Called the hubs, said I'm coming back. Ha. I asked her where my luggage is she said it was already on its way to Phoenix, and will sit there overnight til I arrive. At this point, I start laughing, like cracking up laughing. What more could I do but laugh that this has seriously happened again, in 48 hours!

Since flying back to VA used the rest of my buddy pass, I had to pay $300 to book a full price one way ticket for Tuesday, to go from VA to Philly and finally arrive in Phx at home. Whatever, no more stand by, guaranteed a seat. Ill take it. My poor mom had to figure out clothes for the girls the extra day since they had school and the dog lady watched the dogs and extra night. All worked out. That night I fly back to VA, same ticket people were there, same gate people..too funny. I flew for recreational purposes on Monday for the love of my husband! =)

Needless to say by the time i got there we had 7 hours together that night before I left again, and it actually ended up being one of the next nights in the longest time! Well worth it!. I flew safely back home Tuesday, my luggage was being held, changed my clothes in the car and went to the office!

I learned a few things. With dogs, kids at home and work...buddy passes are NOT worth the hassle. Stand by is way to risky. I ended up spending more at the end of the day then for the pass.

I learned for the love of my husband and the game he plays, i'll do anything for him.

I learned that when you love someone its so important to experience new thing's with them, to laugh at the mishaps in life, and to remember that the most important thing is being together.

Some pics from my visit!